The Canyon Where God Found Me

Lost in a World Without Anchors

Growing up, my life was confusing and unstable. Dishonest people and endless disappointments left me longing for something more. Truth was hard to discern. I searched for love but couldn’t find it, so I chased after it in all the wrong places.

I became a fierce, intense child — a tiny warrior determined to expose lies and survive. Yet in my pursuit of significance, I crossed boundaries, built altars to false gods, and entangled myself in destructive relationships. I twisted myself into a people-pleasing pretzel, hoping to be accepted, but instead found my worth chipped away.

"I twisted myself into a people-pleasing pretzel, hoping to be accepted, but instead found my worth chipped away."

Anger, hurt, and unanswered questions about God filled my days. I saw Him as an unmerciful judge, far away and unreachable. After decades of wandering through a faithless world, I convinced myself my life didn’t matter.

The Canyon Road Turning Point

Driving aimlessly one day, with pressing despair burdening my heart, I wanted to end my life. But on that isolated canyon road, in one miraculous moment, God’s presence broke through my hopelessness.

Peace replaced my fear, and my hardened heart opened to Him. That’s where my search ended — and my true life began.

God gave me what the world never could. His Holy Spirit raptured my heart, answering my questions about loss, forgiveness, and trust. He healed wounds I thought would always define me. He taught me that suffering, while painful, could be the soil where endurance, character, and hope grow.

“We rejoice in our sufferings, knowing that suffering produces endurance, and endurance produces character, and character produces hope.” (Romans 5:3–4)

A New Way of Living

Love and marriage deepened my faith later in life. Though my husband and I came from different spiritual places, we shared a desire to raise our daughter to know God. We began attending church, where I discovered not just a religion, but a relationship with Jesus.

I knew then — no matter the cost — I wanted to follow Him to eternity.

Purpose in the Pain

Now I understand: everything I endured prepared me for something greater. My pain birthed a ministry. My brokenness gave me compassion for others. My trials became the training ground for serving God with my whole heart.

I no longer demand answers from Him. I trust His timing. His will, not mine. His way, not my way. And in surrender, I’ve found freedom.

Your Invitation

The question is this: Will you hold tight to control — or will you let go and let God write your story?

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